An Ordinary Night by Ayşe Tekşen

Gazing at the stars
ablaze right above his head
he smokes his cigarette.
Sitting alone on his balcony
he discovers there is
no cure to loneliness.
To keep his mind off the thought,
he runs to movies
and then to masturbation;
the things that can be done alone.
To deny this damnable feeling
he takes a look at
the bookshelves in his study.
So many shelves, so many books.
So many that he won’t be able to
finish counting for hours.
Always a reading enthusiast,
he hopes to begin writing his novel
one day or another,
but it is never the right time to begin.
He feels he has to wait more.
For him there has to be more waiting.
A book catches his eye.
One of his favorites.
My Name is Red.
It is hardly a love story.
As a guy who knows the dirty
secrets of the world
he has no room for love stories.
Getting up to fetch the book
he realizes once more
he will stay lonely forever.
And forever lonelier.

Ayşe Tekşen lives in Ankara, Turkey where she works as a Research Assistant at the Department of Foreign Language Education, Middle East Technical University. Her work has appeared in Gravel, After the Pause, The Write Launch, and Uut Poetry. Her forthcoming work will be included in Scarlet Leaf Review and Constellations.

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